The Golden Ticket

In the "October Conference Notebook" in the Ensign, I read an excerpt from a talk by Dieter F. Uchtdorf about a lady who was optimistically waiting for her prince charming to come along. This would be her golden ticket, as they called it, to happiness. She would have a perfect family and be a perfect mom and be perfectly happy. But prince charming never came, and over the years her dissappointment changed to bitterness and anger at the world. She took it out on the people around her, including the children she worked with as an elementary school teacher. This story has a sad ending, because she never realized that even though she didnt have children of her own, God was blessing her with the opportunity to bless hundreds of children as a teacher, and He loved her very much.

So I'm not in that situation, why am I writing about it? I just reflected a little bit when after the article, the magazine posed a question:
"What might be your golden ticket, and how might it be hindering your ability to see the blessings you already have?"

This happens to me so much! I am always wishing for the next thing, and I've been like that my whole life! And I have so many blessings! I have my prince charming and a great job that I love and I can bless this family and learn how to be a mom at the same time! I have the technology of my ipad and the support of my family, especially Debbie, who talks to me every day through text or on the phone. There are definitely days that I wish I could just go home and be with Ricky (especially the nights that the baby doesnt sleep well, like 2 nights ago!) and I think that I should have appreciated more the time that we were together. But that also means that I have to appreciate this time for the blessings that I have. My golden ticket these days has been having kids, because that was my motivation for coming here and when things draw closer it's hard to wait. But then I realize what a big responsibility it is and I need to just enjoy this time, especially when I'm back with Ricky I need to enjoy the time with just him. One of the things that I miss most is that he always spent his free time with me to take me around Querétaro and have fun. I don't think it's bad to miss my hubby, but I do need to be grateful for the here and now while I'm able to provide for my family.

I want to be more grateful for my talents by practicing. It's so hard to find motivation while I'm all by myself and after a long day of baby watching. But if I'm going to have kids of my own, I'm going to have to find it! I am NOT giving up my viola, I feel so good when I play and I love inspiring others by performing. I wonder if maybe I should have like lesson times and deadlines, that always seemed to motivate me in college. See, I should be grateful for this time to figure all that stuff out. You would be amazed by some of the things I can do with a baby around. I can do laundry, do dishes, organize my room, take a shower, pick up toys, do my makeup, eat, exercise, and I even cooked one day. Hey, maybe I should try practicing with him around, even if it's for 5 minutes; he'd have a little music lesson that few babysitters could boast!

Anyway, happy Sunday! It's conference Sunday, and yesterday was Sam's baptism and Josh's birthday! I didnt get to see conference yesterday, but I'm going to watch it today. So y'all enjoy too!