Gratitude List

This has been an interesting week. 2 weeks since my break up with Brian. I think it can be official now to say we broke up again. We have still been able to be good friends, I talked to him for a while yesterday. I still think I'm better off without being his girlfriend, even though it has been hard, some days harder than others. We've been working towards it for a while but it's been hard because we still love eachother, I think it will be a while before that completely goes away. But his friendship is worth it to me. The past couple of weeks we have learned that it's okay, that we can make it. only a week and a half until I see him again. I am nervous, but as long as I remember why it's best, I know that we can maintain just being friends.

Lately, I've found strength from my friends. It's not just me who's struggling with boys. A lot of friends are, so even though we have different situations we can be there for each other and lament and get excited for each other. I have been growing closer to people I thought I would never get close to. Like my violista friend Mary, I had no idea we had so much in common in general. I get really excited about friendship, because I am so passionate about it.

I also was able to spend time with Trish yesterday, and I am really glad to have her back in my life. We have both changed a lot since last time we were close, so much that in a way, it feels like I am best friends with someone new. Maybe she feels that way about me too. It's a bit harder to notice changes in myself. I'm grateful for her. I'm grateful that we made invitations together - they are truly amazing and she has great creative talent! I'm so excited to show everyone.

I am grateful for my calling. I still can't describe how much it is already blessing my life. I definitely need the sisters in the presidency. I need their advice and their spirits and their support. They are great examples to me in everything that I do.

I am grateful that I was able to practice in the lecture hall last night. I have been having like 0 motivation since my hearing. I'm really trying though, it's not too late yet!

I am grateful for skype. It's helped me to be able to contact people, and to talk to Brian who I missed a lot. It's been a challenge not having a phone. :( but it's a good experience, I guess, kept me from talking to Brian too much. It's humbling to not have something so I can call anyone when I have a problem or want to take care of something, I've had to e-mail, which can be a good thing.

I am grateful for my Heavenly Father and Savior, I am still having trouble getting myself to read scriptures the way I should, but They still love me and still have blessed me. I think I am going to go read now. I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

Love,
Sunshine