"My Grace is Sufficient for you.."

Wow.

What a week.

I have had a really, really rough weekend, that I'm trying to forgive myself and make up for and let go of the way I acted and the way things happened, my super moodiness and unfortunately at the same time I felt trapped, is there any way to make up for making mistakes and letting people down?

And the only way I could let go and forgive myself was through my Sunday. Today was definitely a Sunday made for me. I could tell a lot of people felt that way, but I know without a doubt that I needed today.

Today I woke up feeling pretty bad from "girl stuff" and from such an emotionally draining past couple of days. Satan was still bothering me, even after 10 hours of sleep! But when I went to choir with Jamilyn's amazing choir leading skills ;) - and she really did a great job. It reminds me of our practicing sessions together. She's good at taking different ways to solve hard spots and to look at a piece or a line of music. And she makes it fun, and it makes great progress too. It's nice to sing again too. And I talked to Emily, and even though I thought she was mad at me she wasn't, and that helped a lot, especially spending good quality time with her today too. I love her.

And such an amazing testimony meeting. Every testimony helped my own. And when I bore my testimony I talked about how I remembered a scripture, My Grace is sufficient for you, after all that you can do. Mike was talking about how perfect the Savior was. If someone that perfect can forgive me after all that I can do, then I'm sure everyone else does too. And, perhaps most importantly, I can forgive myself (and that's the one I have the most trouble with). I felt so much better.

And everyone's testimonies were reminding me of that same thing, and I looked in the topical guide for that scripture and I couldn't find the one that said after all that we can do, but I definitely found some that said My Grace is sufficient for you, and that was a powerful message. I hope I was able to help remind people just as I was being reminded. Jamilyn's testimony seemed similar to what I was thinking and it was powerful because I look up to her so much, and she keeps trying to remind me that I'm awesome too. And Kari's message was really powerful and encouraging, I wish I could remember exactly what she said, something about trials and how we handle them or that we are amazing or both. lol.

I felt so encouraged also because my fast was that I would be less stressed out. And today when I had a trial, instead of handling it negatively (which often happens), I handled it positively, and even kinda laughed about it. And I was really pleased, that not only was Heavenly Father answering my prayer, but he was making a trial for my good - without that trial, I wouldn't've had that chance to improve, and wouldn't have felt so good about myself or felt like my prayer was answered so fast. It was a real blessing. I hope I can handle more trials that way.

Everyone loved our orchestra concert. Orch gets me so pumped!

Afterwards was break the fast, and some of us came at the tail end of it, and Me and Trish and Brie and AL and Jamilyn and her parents were sitting around the table and that was nice. And there was still yummy food left for us to feast upon... yummmmm. lol I am also grateful that Annalaura prayed and received inspiration for me to be the relief society secretary. It is so fast after my last callings but the Spirit is really confirming it. It's where I need to be. Plus I get to see her and the other members of the presidency more and serve together. I'm really excited about that, and it's an honor to serve and work with the relief society sisters. It's humbling and I hope that I work hard to fulfill it well.

And of course, the wonderful talk by the presiding Bishop Burton. It was like, an answer to what I was thinking. When others are dissappointed with me, if I work really hard to do what the Lord wants me to do, I can make something of myself, and later, they will be impressed by it if not right away. It was great encouragement. He also talked about prayer and how we need the Lord's hand in the direction of our lives.

I love Sundays.

Well, I should go work on my composition. I'm kindof excited about it. Flute and Viola duet. woot! I love you all, I hope everyone has a wonderful night.

Love,
Sunshine